Sunday, May 31, 2009

Miss miss missy.

" Sobsobsob. I miss Izzati khairimah much much mucho. Bbq ni bila Qiaa hoi? -__- Gersang hendak makan ni haa. HA-HA "

Amondo lah yang nak dikecah an sangat tu haa. Kok yee pon awek lambek benor si imah ni pule ni haa. Lupo nogorkhi gamaknya aih. Berito pon takdo ni apatoh lagi bertanyo khabo teme teme kok malaysia ni idok aeh.

Den bukan apo, sadis nengok awan awan tu haa dok nungu jo nek buek "bbq". Apo tu dale bhaso inggerih "barbeque" dale bhaso melayu kito kito ni pulok "barbeku". Ekau tau awan tu apo? Bukan di langet tu lah, nak tau pi tanya pakar nogoi'e.

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Grrrr,

Cuti mahu buat apa ya? Semalam ke bb sekejap je. Mula-mula nak pergi VI, tapi malas pulak so lepak bb saja teman kakak tersayang. Nak ajak mint and the gang dah terlambat pulak. Takpe takpe next time. Cuti kan panjang. Hehe. Itu saja. Hari hari seterusnya masih dalam perancangan.

GAHH.

Disuruh jangan jadi batak,

Dipaksa jangan tak bentak,

Dilawan jangan tersentak,

Dibunuh lansung menghentap tak berdetap tersentap.

Friday, May 29, 2009

HI-HI -______-

Cuti! Cuti! Gelak besauuu mari !

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Ermmm, so I fell like changing school. But in my mind still like "nak ke tak nak". I want a normal life. Normal life like everyone outside there accept for sabians. Har- har :D sorry, for being such a rude. But I think it's a fact. Some of them look very happy to be in that school. I'm glad they are happy. Some of them look like they have been through the same as I am. I'm the mangsa keadaan, which is very humble and the second last one s***** in that school. So, I would like to say here, I really hate sab now. I know hate is a strong word, and it will stay that way. AKU DAH TAK TAHAN DAN TIDAK AKAN BOLEH BERTAHAN. I really can't be such a genius like them. I know laa, my feelings kan :O I WANT NORMAL LIFE. HA-HA. I miss the old me. I miss the old life. I miss everythings in my past time.

If i could really press rewind, I swear and I will and never come back to the future. So, hell yeahh -____- Dear my besties, I really love you all. If my mum gonna say okay soon, means that I will no longer be with all of you in sab. Especially zaza, which my "rakan gosip" this year la kan. Thanks for sharing hot stories and always give advises to me when I'm in trouble. "Tapi jangan lah cakap dekat semua orang kau break je". HO-HO-HO. So, goodbye!

Dear biee,


" I miss you and I'm so need you right now to accompany me ". ERGGHHH!

Sunday, May 24, 2009

It doesn't mean anything now.

Please. When I say it here, I really mean it. Please appreciate all the things that I've done for you. Not just for you, for us for our truly relationship's sake. I've done so many things just for you. I left the old me for you for nothing. I left my real social life for you for nothing. I left my friends and spend more time with you for nothing. I follow your way for nothing. Yes, I wait for you like stupid for nothing nothing and nothing! See, I AM the one who always try to correct the situation. I am the one, who try to make you really happy and fell appreciated. I am the one who fucking stupid always sacrifice everything, as you want just for your happiness my dear. But you? You're just the one who always put a big damn blame on me like fuckingshit mangggg, I'm gonna be crazy la macam ini -_____- Please realised how much I love you and how tired I am. I really love you. I've got so many things to spread out but yeah like always you will laugh at me la kan? Like it doesn't mean anything to you. Thanks for that. Thanks a bunch! You never know how hard I am trying to make everything perfect like we were last year. Expecting something good from you is hopeless and disappointing. It's really hard and tough here. I am sorry for saying that, you asked for it. I know you're happy there, but don't you have at least a little guilty feeling deep inside in your heart?
*It doesn't mean anything now.

Exhausted.


God, please please tuhan yang maha esa YA ALLAH ya TUHANku.

Diri ini serasa kesunyian dan amat berang tatkala berdepan dengan hasutan syaitan yang tidak henti-henti menambahkan perasaan amarah yang sudah cukup dengan nanah yang dirobek oleh makhluk-makhluk sekeliling yang tidak pernah sekali pun cuba dengan lebih matang mendekati dan mendalami diri yang tidak seberapa yang hina yang lagi kerdil ini. Apa sebenarnya yang dikau mahu dalam menjalani lumrah hidup penuh dugaan ini? Sememangnya perasaan amarah ini dipunyai oleh setiap makhluk tuhan di bumi yang indah dan lagi nyata ini. Tetapi perasaan benci meluap-luap semakin hari semakin hari semakin hari semakin melarat kepada perasan amarah yang terlalu lantas lansung tidak dapat ditafsir dan dikawal. Penat penat penat, itu sahaja lah yang bisa dihambur keluar dari bibir ini tatkala dilanda emosi yang terlalu. Otak, tolonglah memahami hati ini. Bersatu lah dengan hati ini. Jangan lah bertindak tanpa memikirkan perasaan hati ini. Tolong lah tolong lah tolong lah....

*pepohon

Thursday, May 7, 2009

I cry again for today.

Just now, I mean one hour ago, I was like belek-belek my homework. Like seriously man! Banyak gila homework tertangguh and obviously I'm a superb leizei bum bum lai lai lai. Mid year examination is just around the corner? Derrrr, iman iman iman don't you realise it is just on this coming monday? Goshh, help me ): Oh, okay okay okay. I'll study later and it will be very soon. Ya, I promise -_________- To be continue, after a few minutes, I took out my student planner book which is already become my buku conteng from my school bag, selak-selak selak-selak suddenly, I was like OHMY! My tears came out. I don't know what was actually happened. " I was shivering when I'm reading the thingy thing, that very closest friend of mine wrote something in that book. Hanya mereka yang tahu. " Aku menangis baca apa yang korang tulis dalam buku aku tu " I love you korang <33.

Guys, you know what? I was wrong at all. Yea I was being so stupid and really over reacting all this time. But for today, I realised that my wempit buddies which are kiqa qaqa mint zaza i.k and myra are the best and the greatest one in this Bumi Bertuah in my very pathetic life. You guys are so amazing and really GRRR, I don't know how I could describe you guys. I love you guys!

Do you ever heard of this " A true friend will be by your side through your darkness hours " or maybe this

" When your world seems to be falling apart a true friend will be there to hold your hand" ?

" Yes, form 2 was our zaman kegemilangan "

" Hope could spend time with you again "

*thanks for being there.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Do you ever wonder what love is all about?

" To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness ".

-by, Wooden Allen.



If


If I never met you, I wouldn't like you.


If I didn't like you I wouldn't love you.


If I didn't love you I wouldn't miss you.


But I did, I do and I always will.

*iloveyou, sol

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Not really good deep inside.

Grrr, yeaa yeaa i'm in hell again for today. pathetic much?
HELP me can?
It's tough here. I hate you, school. I hate you, class. I hate you, friends. I just hate my surroundings right now. And I really hate all the teachers in my school. Definitely, I wanna laugh so hard here to Puan Hajar Siti Hanah. Like seriously maaang, kau ingat kau stylo? HA-HA-HA. Act like your age lah gemuk, tua kerepot. Do you know how not to act like you're so innocent and you're the stylish one in school? Yea, sometimes you're kinda nice. But I still hate your celaka style and your fantat face. Ngak kepingin gwe emangnya terusan berada di sab ni. I wanna move on. God! Please I really fell unappreciated, lonely, annoying. Bitchy? Oh oh oh NEVER! I don't need any fucking attention from anyone. The main theme in this shitty thing is, unappreciate people might lose thousands friends. Maybe one day. I don't really know what actually happening in my spinning heady and obviously in myself. Deeply inside, not superb good.
Thanks a bunch!
*not supeb satisfied

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Drama Competition.







So i'm in hell. Repeating ; H-E-L-L. Tidak ku ngerti mengapa mereka mentertawakan diri ini sebaik sahaja mengetahui aku sebahagian daripada ahli sketsa SAB. whoaa, proud sabians. HE-HE. Mungkin agak pelik jikalau kedengaran 'iman' ahli sketsa? berlakon? Hihi. -__- Jangan memandang rendah. Ada bakat apa. Seperti hendak WOOHO. Tidak mengapa. Pulau kan sahaja. Seronok ke berdrama ini? Pada awalnya agak membosankan tetapi apabila berlakon pada hari pertandingan iaitu 29 April 09, serasa seperti pelakon teater puteri gunung ledang pula. HA-HA. (sekali lagi).

Semalam lah kan? ke kelmarin? tulat? Tak Tak. Betul lah semalam. Berlakon di SMK teknik kl. Pemikiran pelajar sekolah itu agak kolot lebih sedap di dengari kuno. Kelakuan seperti rempit pun ada. Haih. Tak baik tak baik. Sesampai sahaja di sekolah tersebut, allahuakbar ramai orang. Dup dup dap jantung. Sebelum tukar baju, bersarapan dahulu bersama kak ieka, kak zulaikha, mek, quayyum, myra, thira, anis, zul, aidid. OH ya adhoy sekali. Dekat sana aku asyik berkepit dengan adhoy sahaja.

Setelah salin pakaian untuk sketsa, situasi semakin kelam kabut. Persembahan yang ke-4. Alhamdulillah buat dengan baik sekali. Suara aku lontarkan sangat kuat sampai nak keluar anak tekak. Sampai ke belakang pun boleh dengar tanpa pembesar suara. Ada beberapa pelakon terlupa skrip. Tapi nasib baik dapat *cover. GAHH.
sbs dan sbu buat dengan amat baik sekali. Hanya dua buah sekolah itu sahaja yang ditakuti menjadi saingan kepada sekolah sab ini. Sekolah lain? Petik jari pun dah boleh kalah kan. (berlagak).

De-BOMB! Teka lah sekolah kami ini dapat tempat keberapa? Ke-3 je. Tapi tak apa lah. Tak ada lah malu sangat kan. Sekurang-kurangnya ada tempat kan. (practice last minute). Cuma yang sedih tak dapat masuk peringkat zon pudu. Tak apa lah. Menang kalah adat permainan. Menang, teruskan. Kalah, cuba lagi. Tak disegani. Tapi pengalaman dipelajari. Sekurang-kurangnya.
Tahniah kepada sbu, tempat pertama. Sbs, tempat kedua. Teruskan usaha anda.
Sekian.
*Tanpa rasa

Friday, May 1, 2009

Hello World.


Okay, i'm new here. But attitude all the time, still the same. Perubahan dari segi pemikiran sahaja. Repeating ; P-E-M-I-K-I-R-A-N. *Hormon. So, this blogspot thingy is really GRRR, yea for you sign up for "wordpress.com". This thingy is quite spinnino and confusing. Anyway, get used to it soon. Okay? Enjoyy! HA-HA.